I’ve been experimenting with this vintage technology recently, I believe its called “The Radio” and I have to say I was not impressed, Every single song that came on was about “Partying, Getting Crunk, Lets get wasted oh and Gucci mane Burr?” – WTF REALLY? I don’t think that these people know how much this effects the general public, Not that they care because they are making loads of money and I would probably do the same – I just cannot wait until this “Phase” is over.

Now to be fair, I’m NO saint when it comes to having some drinks and going out from time to time, and I believe that there is nothing wrong with it – It only becomes a problem when that’s all you want to do every night of the week and weekend and it starts effecting there lives.

Just an FYI, When people get this far into the party lifestyle – It is extremely hard to convince them they have a problem, and they will argue with you forever, It’s almost not even worth talking to them about it.

How else could you find it a good idea to wasted at 10AM on a Wednesday morning with one of the most popular songs on the radio justifying it for you, And I quote;

“rock star, lifestyle, might dont make it – living life high everyday clique wasted – sippin on purple stuff, rollin up stankin – wake in the morning, 10 o’clock drinkin – party, party, party, lets all get wasted – shake it for me baby girl do it butt-naked – im so wasted, she so wasted – tell the bartender send me 20 mo cases”

What was that you might ask? why that was a clear calling for everyone to do nothing with there lives and still think they are cool, Thanks Gucci Mane (Burr?)! – BTW your music sucks…

UPDATE:

I rest my case…

I’ve never quite understood my own mentality on how I live my life and the decisions I make, I only know that every now and then I find it necessary to reevaluate just about every thing that I’m doing and ask myself if that’s really what I want to be doing, or if I really like the direction I’m headed in.

I find this very important and whenever I try to explain this thought process I have about reevaluating life, no one really seems to understand what I mean… Let me try to explain it a little better and in more detail here.

Realizing when its time

This can happen to me at any time, it could be the slightest argument with a friend or a situation that turned sour; whatever it may be I’ll get this feeling in my gut and I know something is wrong. Sometimes It builds from a few incidents and sometimes it can come full force from one situation or problem, but when it hits me, I know.

Taking the Time

I think this is where a lot of people fall off, you might have experienced exactly what I just described above, you probably know that exact feeling that I’m talking about, but you don’t confront it; Over time I have learned to take this instinct head on and really let myself go over anything that I need to and take the time to realize and plan out my next course of actions. Most people find this the most odd of them all, Sometimes I’ll just stay at home by myself and just think about everything that is going on and what it is that I really need to change in order to make myself happy and in the direction I want to be in. I think that this step is very critical, people just don’t take the time anymore to take everything in, they’re in a constant state of work/play and never really get to process it all thoroughly.

Whats wrong with me?

I’m not perfect by any means and neither is anyone else (if they tell you otherwise they’re full of shit) I know I have my own personal problems and I try to be as good as possible, but sometimes I start heading down a direction that I really don’t want to go down, and this could be a number or things, like hanging out with people that I know are not going to benefit me in any way or getting too confident and talking shit like I’m a baller; we can all be victims of ourselves if we cannot control these actions, and usually situations like these are what gets me into this evaluating state to begin with.

Planning out what to do

After taking some time to really think about everything that is going on in my life I plan out a course of action, this does not need to be 100% official and on paper, just get a good set of ideas in my head about what it is that I really want to do and ways I can prevent myself from getting back into the situations that got me here in the first place.

Taking action and following through with my plan

This is by far the most important part, actually doing something to change your behavior and taking the steps to do what you really want in life and not regret it; Most people take the low road on this one, They realize everything that I have said before and have been in the same situation, but they don’t actually know how to handle the situation so they do whatever they think will make them happy in life, but these actions are usually temporary and wrong. take for example, a person is really bummed out about all the problems they recently had and instead of making goals and plans on how to fix it, they just decided to as little as possible to survive and feel that they deserve to party, drink and hang out with other people to get away from there current problems, does anyone really think this is going to solve anything? Yes actually, they do; and that is where the problem exists and until they can come to an understanding of that problem they will continue to produce more problems for themselves and continue down a horrible path.

The only thing that I have found to work is to just take responsibility for yourself and your actions, Don’t rely on anyone to do anything for you, You will be more independent and able to solve problems much easier and really have respect for yourself. There’s no better feeling then solving life’s problems by yourself and reaping the mental rewards.

Life after the Evaluation

The first few weeks after a good evaluation is the best, you know exactly what you want to do and how to achieve the goals you have set for yourself, although this will not last forever; A few months down the road, maybe sooner maybe longer, you will find yourself in this situation again and have to do it all over again, but hey that’s life! And if life was not a roller coaster, it would be boring as hell.

It has become clear to me lately that even though you may hit a quota in your life and where you want to be, It only opens a window for more improvement and never really seems to fill that void of satisfaction you where expecting.

I’m almost positive the key to a happy and fulfilled life is balance… My problem is I don’t posses that skill

I focus too hard on one aspect and expect the others to fall into place with my success of a certain portion, Take for example I strive to be very successful in my career ( or lack thereof ) and expect my social life to Handel itself, Big mistake..

I have always dealt with everything in a very analytical sound decision way, Which you think would make sense for just about everything in life, well I have recently found out that it does not work that way, ( Business Yes, Personal life and Relationships No. ) I have found that friends and relationships do not operate in the analyitical world I know, they work on a very complex algorithm of nothing, I’m serious people operate on a emotional status and a lot of the time that does not make sense to me, I can’t comprehend how people make decisions based on emotions or personal beliefs even though they may be incorrect.

Its amazing how your aspect of goals and life can change in a short amount of time, First you have goals that seem to be almost unreachable, Once you do reach these goals, it feels amazing! Then the reality kicks back in and you ask yourself “Where do I go from here”… That is the ultimate question you will have to ask yourself at some point in your life, For me that point just happened. I’ve had my ups, I’ve had my downs, but now I have a new understanding of success and progress.

Sometimes you think your successful for a short time, only to realize you’ve only made progress and have a long way to go to achieve that ultimate goal of “Happiness”.

By the Way, Check out Manchester Orchestra’s new song “I Can Feel A Hot One”

Designed this blog yesterday, got charlie to get it coded in under 8 hours, Pretty fast.

Many more posts are to come, about Tech, Affiliate Marketing and Life in general..

I promise I’ll try to keep it as interesting as possible…